I still searching you in my memory-Lin Feng

My love for you in this life no one can compete
I with you just lack of something we gonna be together forever
The place and time I meet you Just like a memorable movie
where should I start the story
love is too heavy breathe deeply suffocating
love is too pretty Insignificant but i cant lift it
when the love come the weather is shining brightly
when it gone the wind is howling and snowing suddenly
if i can hate you try all my might to hate you
even have to avoid you when we meet
I just want to let go but i still missing you
who else will sad like me
I scare people ask me about the past
no matter how i strech my hand
there are still distance between us

you are too far how can I to apologise
you are too near turn around you already gone
happiness is too short just like a meteor passing across the sky
wink my eye all like an illusion which i scare i recall
if i can hate you try all my might to hate you
even have to avoid you when we meet
I just wantto let go but I still missing you
who else will sad like me
I scare people ask me about the past
NO MATTER HOW I STRECH MY HAND
THERE ARE STILL DISTANCE BETWEEN US


I wish I can hate you
I still searching you in my memory

爱在记忆中找你-林峰

我对你 这一生 哪个可比
我与你 差一些 永远一起
邂后时间场地 似连场好戏
要自何页说起
爱太重 深呼吸 欠缺空气
爱太美 轻轻的 却载不起
爱情来到的时候 似明媚天气
它走了 忽然聚变雪落雨飞
如果可以恨你 全力痛恨你
连遇上亦要躲避你
无非想放下你 还是挂念你
谁又会及我伤悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎么伸尽手臂
我们亦有一些距离

你太远 该怎么 说对不起
你太近 一转身 却已高飞
快乐也许太短 似场流星雨
一眨眼 就如幻觉怕又记起
如果可以恨你 全力痛恨你
连遇上亦要躲避
无非想放下你 还是挂念你
谁又会及我伤悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎么伸尽手臂
我们亦有一些距离

如果可以恨你 全力痛恨你
连遇上亦要躲避
无非要放下你 还是挂念你
谁又会及我伤悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎么伸尽手臂
我们亦有些距离

我情愿我狠心憎你
我还在记忆中找你

Ryan Cabrera -True

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think i dunt look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
I m attached to you
I m weak
Its true
Coz I m afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too ?
Coz my heart keeps falling faster
I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I 've waited
This i strue
You dunt know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I m afraid to move
I m weak
Its true
I m just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So i will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
all my life i've waited
This is true
I know when i go I will be on my way to you
the way thats true
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
This is true

五公分的另一端

犹豫不决, 该不该牵起你的手,
笑容的背后, 是否有我都不知道的感动?
风, 还是拉不近我们的距离,
感觉不到你的呼吸,
只听到心在乱跳.

你说, 风很凉, 情很淡, 过去逝去了就算 .
五公分的另一端 看不到属于我们的未来,
只因为你还跨不过别人的感慨.

五公分的另一端,
脑海里不断重复的对白,
口袋里不想忘记的回忆,
过去并不是逝去了就算.

五公分的另一端,
未来还在,
只等待我们去爱,
就算伤痕累累我们一起面对,
五公分的另一端-因你而在

_FirmLy HolD_

__I'm HeRe To aPologIsE__

It is shit that I keep telling you that all I need is just another she,
While you are staying at my side,
listen to all of my sighs,
I never realise , hw bright you can shine,0
and I never try , to always stay in your sight.
Till the day, you turn away,
leave me all the way,
and I, the stupid I,
only realise,
I cant live without you in my life.

I'm here to apologise,
she is no longer in my mind,
but you thought I'm telling you lie,
gal, now you are the one in my mind,
and my only sunshine,
I noe it ain't easy to trust someone who once bring tear to your eye,
so do I,
can you trust me one more time?
pls save your last goodbye
and give it a try,
hope you can be mine till the end of time.

P.s(It ain't a story of mine)
Delicate to my best female fren who always stay at my side ^^

__Trust__

Life getting tougher and tougher when we are growing older and older. When we are young, perhaps i should say that when we were children , we used to trust people so easily right? but when we grow up, when somebody tell you something , naturally but pathetically, we will think that , "Is he/she telling me the truth?" , " Should I trust him/her?" , sometime we even will think that, "What he/she is talking or doing about is jz for his or her own benefit..." Life is tough for me when I cant simply trust someone, or I cant get someone's trust even i try my best to do so, I have to think twice for every my single word, coz i may speak as what i think but the people who listen to may jz think I'm bluffing or crapping and interpret in a wrong way , so when they tell other about what i have said, they will add their opinion into it and make my word twisted, all of it is just because of no "Trust" btw us. It is sarcastic that people just cant trust each other even they have communication or interaction for almost everyday. May be I'm too naive in this way , I thought when we make a friend we should trust and each other sincerely? but not doubting his/her every single words....or I'm too bad for people to trust me? Someone told me, dunt ever trust someone so easily, sigh, I used to be alone and trusting no one, and i no longer want go back to the world that just got myself.... Well, I should feel lucky that i still got some friends that i never doubt about their words, someone always there for me when I need him, and trust me so much as I did to him . If trust is not exist in a friendship, what is the bond that keep holding us together? A companionship? One of the billion of people in your life who are not really important to you? Someone for you when you are lonely , when you need him/her but you are not trusting him/her? Ridiculous , huh? I know that it ain't easy to get someone's trust, but I just dunno that is it so hard......Perhaps I should keep all to myself and not simply tell people about my stuff and not trusting people so much, so I wunt expect people to understand me or trust me.......perhaps, life will get easier tomorrow....

__No offence__

__LiFe WithouT yoU__

Turn off the white light,
close my eye,
but deep inside my head,
is all of your face....
Every moment I spend with you,
Is jz like a short movie,
flashing across my mind....

Turn around,
Your face still there, vividly...
Imagine what are you doing,
Wondering who you are hanging out with,
It bring tear to my eye...

Miss those day, when i can sit still opposite of you to look into your eye,
miss those call, which i can listen to your sweet voice,
but now, you are not here anymore,
shattered, my heart...

Dunt blame me for my pessimistic thinking,
b'coz I'm jz not a confident guy,
or may be in my eye,
you are too good, too far for me to hold you as long as i wish...
Gal,I'd fall in love to you, yes I do, I swear it is true....

__SweeT DreaM LasT NiGhT__

She lay her head on my arm last night, in dream...
I playing with her long hair softly last night, in dream...
Not really remember the sense of her hair,
but cleary remember how sweet it is...
I wonder, would her feel my eractical heart beat?
it is possible she is also having the same dream with me last night?
I wonder, would i have the same sweet dream tonight?
would it come to real one day?
i wonder, and keep wondering....
A sweet dream, last night...

__That Is How It enD__

She is fragile, shily smile,
pale looking face, dimly shine eye,
just like an isolated moon in the dark vast sky.

He is fulled of talence, just like a famous star,
walking in the crowd, catch all's eye,
stay cool, but easy going.

No ppl understand why he is with her,
two residents from 2 different world..
He is a perfect guy for many many gals,
He can write a sentimental lyrics for her,
Once a while,
he can play some sweet song to convey his love,
Once a while,
he can cook some lovely breakfast for her,
Once a while...

But She jz want someone can be always be there for her,
even he cant cook,
even he dunno hw to play song,
even he is not romantic enough...

She wish him can be the first person come to her when she is in trouble,
but he cant always make it,
reply her message at the first time when she need someone to pamper her,
but he cant always make it,
saunter along the beach,
even no flower, no sweet words,
the firmly hold hand will secure her heart,
but he not aware of it....

Separate, that is how it end....

Blue Dismal __ Translated From Richie Ren's

Sarcasm breeze stroking your face,
Leisurely but gloomily,
Some birds are flying across the river, in the companion of evening sun,
nodding their head, nobody cares,
There are someone playing love song, far away,
romantic but feeling lonely,
Making you feel miserable after listening,
You are asking the same question again,
who gonna accompany you 4 dinner tonight?
You smiling while telling me you already get used to it,
Sometime you prefer it in this way too,
alone but free to do whatever you like,
nobody gonna restrict you,
Jz sometime alone remind you of the past..

How long does no body call you sweet heart anymore?
Melt your heart and let your tear come out,
Someone there for you when the winter come,
no more drunk alone…
the sky is darkening everyday,
turn on the tv,
waiting for another touching story(regret),
How long does no body call you sweet heart anymore?
Always there for you when you are not well,
the sky is darkening everyday,
Turn off the tv,
Who gonna send you good night message tonight?

No body understand your feeling,
blue , a special color,
Looking at the pairs on the street,
you feel ntg ,
Pretend to be light-hearted, smiling,
Naïve like a children,
dance on the street happily,
back at home,
You let go all of your defenses,
tears coming out not,even you realize…

How long does no body call you sweet heart anymore? ( May I?)
Melt your heart and let your tear come out, ( I wish you give the chance)
Someone there for you when the winter come, (always be the first 4 you)
no more drunk alone… (Coz I will warm your heart)
the sky is darkening everyday, (I wish to hold your hand watching the sun setting)
turn on the tv, (I will be your side)
waiting for another touching story(regret), (cry with you together)
How long does no body call you sweet heart anymore? (May I?)
Always there for you when u not well, (I wish you give me the chance)
the sky is darkening everyday, (making you feel sweet waiting my good night msg)
Turn off the tv, ( My hand not gonna let go of your hand anymore)
Who gonna send you good night message? (You dunt need it anymore)

__I'm SoRry ThaT__

_Family_
I'm sry that once I have forgotten how important family are,
I'm sry that you have a not so obedient grandson,
I'm sry that you have a son who had forgotten to say Happy Father Day to you,
I'm sry that you have a son who always bring you trouble,
I'm sry that you have a son who used to blame you for the divorce,
I'm sry that you have a son who used to show cold sholder to you,
I'm sry that you have a bro who are not missing you always,
I'm sry that you have a bro who always keep asking you about ur study,
I wish you can live longer so i have more time to show my love to my beloved granmum,
have a chit chat with you, smiling while u reminding me my mistake, heed to you advices, help you to do housechores, praising you for the delicious disks you cook for us, hold your hand while you stumbling....
I wish can sense your happiness while i wish you Happy Father Day every year, time remind me that you never slap me even i do something wrong, thx for always give me wat you can, thx for giving me the chance to study and support me everythime i tell you what i wanna do, and always believe i can do well in that,although i cant give me a wealthly life but at least u teach me hw to live in a tough life, and ur son gonna be far better than those who are borned with a silver spoon in their mouth...
i wish you can find another good guy who can take good care of you in future, thx 4 everything you have done for me even i show cold shoulder to you, thx for the sudden call jz to ask me to take good care of myself....
I wish you can do well in your study , and find a good guy in future, be strong even ur parent had divorced...

_SHE_
I'm sry that I'm not good enough to be ur guy,
I'm sry that I had forgotten your birthday,
I'm sry that the fact i m not aware you are not happy,
I'm sry that telling you that i love you ,
I'm sry that the damn sweet words i have told you,
I'm sry that I m jz not so understand you at all,
I'm sry that I m too rush everytime,
I wish that you can be persistant for your choice and not giving up easily,
she is jz a young gal searching for some love in this big world,
so may God bless her in her love and find her prince,
I wish him can appreciate her now and ever,
always be the first for her...

_Friend_
I'm sry that I'm not a good fren at all,
I'm sry that I'm too emotional sometime,
I'm sry that I'm too selfish sometime,
I'm sry that I dunt like simply let ppl copy my answer for granted,
I'm sry that always make YOU worry about me,
I'm sry that always find YOU for chatting when i m sad but i not aware that you may bz too,
I'm sry that I cant keep the promise,
I'm sry that sometime my talking will hurt soemone...

__GirL, sToP ThaT__

Girl, stop telling me that u need me even you really mean it,
for that moment,
coz i find out i cant stop missing you after u told me that ,
and that is what i try not to do now...

Girl, stop telling me that u need me but i m jz not your first choice,
coz it is killing me , it is too sweet for me,
and i really cant afford it...

Girl, stop telling me that u need me, if u are not yet ready,
coz i will do everything but at the end i guess i will jz get an another dissapointed answer,
which i will think it worth while people around say i m a fool...

Girl, stop telling me that u need me, if the first person in ur mind is not me,
may be we( or me only) should back to last time ,
that time i put not much hope on your name will appear on my handphone again...
(That time I stop checking my hp for your name every half an hour)

Girl, stop telling me that u need me ,
u really dunt need to tell me that,
coz i will always be there for you,
when u are alone , you are down , you need somebody,
as a friend...

Girl, stop telling me that u need me ,
It will only make me feel worse for myself not good enough to to be your man...

Girl, I love you, I really mean it,
when you tell me you need me..
so jz dunt simply tell me that you need me ,
you will never know hw much a stupid guy like me will be touched by this 3 simply ' i need you'...
and I never regret about it...

__StaGe oF LiFe___

There must be some reasons we are borned to this world. But i still wondering for my reason. Some found their reason and work hard on it and get the self-satisfication by making themself special from the others. Some found their stage of life in their study, some in sport ,some in relationship ,games and so on....How about me ? I dunt think i m more intelligent than others or very good in some thing like sport or whatever...so what is my reason for coming to this world? And what is the stage of life for me to make myself different from other? Is it i can jz pass through my life by study , working , get marry and die? A so so normal and lame life.....I dunt want jz pass through my life lidat , feeling nothing i good at , walking among the crowd and cant find out what i m different from them making me sick .Wake up , study , sleep .. keep repeating the routine but dunno what am i study for....I really wanna know what I really want....At the day i find out my reason for coming into this world , i will be different from others...

__My MidTerm Break__

It is the worst holiday for me i think, no more sleep for 12 hours like last break...no more enjoyable like last time even i was alone in the empty house...too many thing for me to settle, applied static and engineering mathstests are coming the break, but i have no idea about that, 2 lab reports have to submit str after the break , mmu table tennis closed is coming on 19/8/07 , luckily, or unluckily i am the assistant director of this event , but seem like everything is not yet start....perhaps too much thing for me to do , so , internaly, i choose to ignore them all , doing nothing and waiting the time to pass away...Damn hate it!!! I dunno since when i start to feel that the lecture is tough, may be i not play enough attention on it. Dunno since when i realise my table tennis skil is so sux...and trying hard to improve it ....haihz...all i want now is to sleep for 12 hours .....arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...but now is the early morning of the last day of break ...>.< ...tomorrow after wake up have to settle the registration booth , have to find teammate to discuss about the lab report...have to find fren to ask for help for the coming test ...some people say that having dream in the sleep is not really good coz ur brain is functioning without break , well but i realli wish that i can have a sweet dream tonight , which can make me more energytic to prepare for tomorrow 's life...

P.s sry for this untidy blog..>.<