_It's noT BreaKinG My HeaRt_

shall we jz be fren?
perhaps....
Love is not jz about understand
understand...
Stand by your side always
doesnt mean we can be together
you nvr ask me about that....

Listen to your every sighs, I doubt
if that I could make you smile
you nvr try...
shall I offer my hand?
I dunt want to lose a fren....
So I'm holding back

It is good to know you've found someone
share your joys every nights
and it is not breaking my heart
it is breaking my heart....

Even I said I miss you
would you take it seriously?
i dunno wat is on your mind...
Holding back is what I could
and it is not breaking my heart
why dunt you jz tell me you love me ....

I wish upon a star
when we meet somewhere years after
we're still fren as right now
yeah we are...

I'm who I am
Just not who you need In your life
you nvr ask.....
I'll proud to tell the others
you're the onli one
and it is not breaking my heart
It is breaking my heart.....


*seriously it is not about anyone =.="

_An ReUnioN PicTuRe_

Left (sitting) :
Yi chin @ huhu , pei zhi of computer hardware geniuse, shen yu_spm 13 As_JPA scholar holder (keep fit la..zzz) , yee sheng @ teh_KinG ScouT (keng lo keng lo)

Left (standing):
Kai Yan@ Boss (a nice guywho gonna depart soon...), Hing Mung @Heman@Mungzai @ sharonzz, Hoong @ Fatty @ hoong hoong @ hoong er @ "da tu zhi ( big stomach)"
Kok soon @Doggy_one of the penang best dota players (=.=")

Right :
lolz.....Lau kao is here to cheer u up , Keng chye @ ah chye _King ScouT_our Group archive, Heng Zheng @ Zheng ar@ Ah Lau_Profesional Kap siao ong, Chin Seng @ beast ( ntg to say about him ), Loh Kiam Poh @ ah poh _most handsome among scouts of our form (Gals, u wunt regret get to know him ), Dominic chew @ Nick _Stim stim ....hoho.. Ah pia @ duck dumbstick mee shuan@ I's Pia (I's= I m soHai)_ Penang Best dota Team Team Leader


P.s ( many absence for this gathering , wish taht all can make it next time)

_When EveryThinG ChanGe_

when everythings change,
we're not smile from the bottom of heart,
pretending to be ok,
but we are hurted by each other,
I know it,
I really know it....
You turn cold towards me,
I feign like dunno what is going on,
continue sending you my goodnight message,
but deep inside my heart,
I'm struggling should I jz stop it?
Would it be a disturbance to you?
but you told me that you like receiving goodnight message,
it make you feel you are belonged,
although you never send me one...

When everythings change,
I blame myself for not strong enough but too sensitive to your every single words,
I m weak,
deep inside...
I'll use my sorrow to remember the memory with you,
if it is what it mean for me.
What I cant really let go is your smile,
and that I'm no longer the reason for the smile on your face.

Perhaps we should just be friend,
never step on the boundary that you set...

When everythings change

_Testi From She_

first of all i am grateful to have u as my fren-heng dai to be exact..although since the day i noe you we dont really have the chance to really meet but i am sure dat u r a guy that any gal can trust on..it has been very fun to be ur fren and chat wit u when there is no one 4 me to chat wit..dont worry abt u findin the right gal..u r a responsible n a loving guy i wud say... u will definitely find a gal dat u truly loves u n she loves you..pai seh out of topic...back to u-so far as i noe u, u are an emotional and athletic guy...and a determine one too..what can i say is that is comfortable with you around...

_BeTa Second Sem_

Hmm, I would say it is an unforgettable semester, I and hoong has joined the " The Lost" camp which is organised by TTc, badminton club and flex clubs. We were assigned as committee in food department. I have got to know many people through this camp like amanda, racheal, tong kang, eighteen and so on....the camp is fun and memorable after all. I ahve to admit that having a camp is a good way to enhance the relationship between people from the same either from the same clubs ot diffrent clubs, we can the respective diffrent way of organising an event through it. Well, I'd fall sick after returing from the camp, a quite heavy fever. For the fers time, I'm so jealous about domic who has gf to take care of him , beside him when he fall sick. For the fes day, i was just keep drinking alot of water, vomited and slept, luckily i m getting better after i took some pendanol antifast. Hw nice if i got some gf beside me when I fall sick , at least I wunt feel so pity for myself , it is the fers time i feel so weak...At the fifth week ,I'd organised the Junior Tournament 2007, I get third place for Intermediate catergory and hoong get 2 nd place for beginner catergory...After that, I'd have some sweet fleeting memories with someone, anyway , it is belonged to past tense now. Wellm I think that I wunt score a very good result for this sem , perhaps i wunt get fers class as well, but I'd try my best and realli learn something especially "Engineering Graphic" subject, may be i will retake this subject in future to get a better result. Oh ya , I have resigned the post of ass. director of Intervarsity Table Tennis Tournament due to some internal conflict of myself and with my director. Again , she gotta listen to my another she's story , haha....

_BeTa FiRst SeM_

At the beginning of this semeter, hoong and me were quite not get used to the loneliness of the house which has jz left two of us, obviously the laughter is lesser, however, the visit of dom and mungz once a blue moon has made us feeling better. The gal who I used to love the most has came into my life again, givingme hope, and turn away coldly. This incident has enlightened me about my mis-feeling towards another gal, I'd explai to her and wish that we still can be good fren. Indeed, we are best friend of each other now. Joining the committee of TTc did made me learn many things and get to know more and more people. From the vice-director of MMU Closed 2007 to the vice director of this accademic year biggest function-Intervarsity table tennis tournament, all were just to fast for me. In fact, I m glad that I can play table tennis again after primary school, on the other hand, i also realise that there so many political problem inside the club and i m involving myself into it....sigh...Due to the departure of most of my alpha year's frens, i start joining Ron Pin's gang for accademic discussion and so on. Someone coem into my lifesuddenly and go away without any indication, leaving me there bleeding. Am I think too much? or she is avoiding too ? I dunno and i have no longer wish to find out, because all is so insignificant for me right now, what had gone have gone, i wish no to have another chapter about it with the someone....Again, thx for the support and advices from my best friend aka hoong hoong and her. Obtain first class in this semester, not feeling excited anyway, perhaps i m not so care about the result....


P.s Thx for the introduction of [ wait for you ] by Bernice and [You were my everythings] from Shanshan , both of them are still my favourite song ...wink

__So we are__

Some people say,
we can still be friend even we cant get to be together,
but how could I forget those moments with you ?
your lovely smile still linger in my mind,
every night i close my eye, and
every morning the sun blind my sight.

You smile when we meet,
but I know it is a different one,
the distance is growing between us,
perhaps before I know why,
I'd become "him" from your mouth,
but what will be will be...

So familiar yet so strange,
how could we become like this?
I thought we are fated,
but we are not...
I thought we are mean to be,
but we are not..
at the end onli i realise,
it is just a solo show...

They say we should not be avoiding,
but is it a fake smile better than a heart break?
perhaps the feeling of poignant is worse than a shattered heart..
If speechlessness is the only thing between us,
I wish we should not meet again,
at least in my dream,
you are still so lovely and.....sweet..

_Alpha last Sem_

Another long and last semester for Alpha year, many things'd happened within this foyr months, sad and happy, memorable and regrettable. I have joined handicap and tag team tournament organised by TTc (Table Tennis Club) , scoring a not so bad result in both of them, there are many experts in TTc , my wish is to improve myself and beat them one by one (naive) ..wink...Net-sWt team - Penang top three DOTA team which consist of wei sheng (pia), yi chin (huhu), Rymond, Cherd have visited us, we'd have some memorable moments in those few days. Unfortunately, this team was disbanded and pia has formed anoter team so called Ice-Pia which is Penang top DOTA team currently. One of my best fren, hun hao has go to Australia to further his study in Febraury, another not-so-good ending love story is arise due to his departure, if he'd change his mind and stay here, would the story become a better one? At march, hoong, soon, dom, pia and huhu have formed a team to join MMU open dota tournament , but they were beatened by W4SI from Perak.
Due to their excessive fondness for DOTa and my tension for study, I always have insomnia in the midnight, we'd quarrel and I'd have some lonely dinner and sleep at living hall for few weeks. All becoem normal after a bbq held at my house....Exam came and past, it is time for separation, Soon, Dom and Mungz will study at cyber in next 4 years. Before the sem end, I'd meet my TTc president, wen how, at pasar malam , he offered me to be part of them so i wil become TTc committee for the coming sem. Oh ya, i have start working at the workshop of hoong'dad's, a well paying part time job. Everything look nice, and i do have find someone who are so volunteer herself be my listener whenever I face problem.....

_Alpha short sem_

It is a 2 months short semester, nothing change in my life , quite get used to the colege life now, which is even you dunt prepare much , u still can score a quite good result as long as you did all the tutorials, exam question will be appear easier than the tutorial or assignment question , is it due to the student pay the expensive fee? Sometime i will feel a bit regret 4 coming here instead of F6....I am quite free this semester because of jz need to study 3 subjects and without any lab session. Well , start playing table tennis again due to zhi yang , i'd join the training session and some tournament , hoping i can improve from those activities with my commercially-product rm49.90 blade from Jusco jaya...haha....In the end of this sem , i 'd meet someone via msn , she has became my best female fren and one of the most important female in my life , she know my every story with another her , she is the one who i wish to talk with when i m facing problem , talking with her like some kind of medicine which wil heal my sickness....^^

_Alpha fers Sem at MMU_

Well, time to change and adapt myself to the new stage of life- college life. It is the first semester of my college life, we'd join the CLS - Chinese Language Society, but i never join any one of its avtivities. All is quite different now, everyone come from different corner of malaysia and some from oversea. Most of us are communicating in English, perhaps it is the international language, it take me soem time to suit myself for the new environment. I no longer need to pass up dozen of homework daily which have be replaced by weekly personal or group tuitorial. Due to my timid characteristic, I dunt realli mix well with my coursemate and onli get to know some friends. 5 of us , me , jian hoong , dominic, kok soon and mung have formed a dota team so called BOM-Best Of Melacca, although we are not realli the best of melacca. Kok song is the leader due to his pro-skill and the well planned line up strategy. Well, i would say that in the begiining of this sem is teh most happier and memorable. I'd taste the sweetness of Love, the desperation when feeling inadequate, the poignance when get to know she is with another guy and speechless when knowing she is avoiding me......Scoring a quite good but not so sastifying result, it is how my first sem end. Jop , Dom and kok sonng did found their gf here ....^^