Blue Dismal __ Translated From Richie Ren's

Sarcasm breeze stroking your face,
Leisurely but gloomily,
Some birds are flying across the river, in the companion of evening sun,
nodding their head, nobody cares,
There are someone playing love song, far away,
romantic but feeling lonely,
Making you feel miserable after listening,
You are asking the same question again,
who gonna accompany you 4 dinner tonight?
You smiling while telling me you already get used to it,
Sometime you prefer it in this way too,
alone but free to do whatever you like,
nobody gonna restrict you,
Jz sometime alone remind you of the past..

How long does no body call you sweet heart anymore?
Melt your heart and let your tear come out,
Someone there for you when the winter come,
no more drunk alone…
the sky is darkening everyday,
turn on the tv,
waiting for another touching story(regret),
How long does no body call you sweet heart anymore?
Always there for you when you are not well,
the sky is darkening everyday,
Turn off the tv,
Who gonna send you good night message tonight?

No body understand your feeling,
blue , a special color,
Looking at the pairs on the street,
you feel ntg ,
Pretend to be light-hearted, smiling,
Naïve like a children,
dance on the street happily,
back at home,
You let go all of your defenses,
tears coming out not,even you realize…

How long does no body call you sweet heart anymore? ( May I?)
Melt your heart and let your tear come out, ( I wish you give the chance)
Someone there for you when the winter come, (always be the first 4 you)
no more drunk alone… (Coz I will warm your heart)
the sky is darkening everyday, (I wish to hold your hand watching the sun setting)
turn on the tv, (I will be your side)
waiting for another touching story(regret), (cry with you together)
How long does no body call you sweet heart anymore? (May I?)
Always there for you when u not well, (I wish you give me the chance)
the sky is darkening everyday, (making you feel sweet waiting my good night msg)
Turn off the tv, ( My hand not gonna let go of your hand anymore)
Who gonna send you good night message? (You dunt need it anymore)

__I'm SoRry ThaT__

_Family_
I'm sry that once I have forgotten how important family are,
I'm sry that you have a not so obedient grandson,
I'm sry that you have a son who had forgotten to say Happy Father Day to you,
I'm sry that you have a son who always bring you trouble,
I'm sry that you have a son who used to blame you for the divorce,
I'm sry that you have a son who used to show cold sholder to you,
I'm sry that you have a bro who are not missing you always,
I'm sry that you have a bro who always keep asking you about ur study,
I wish you can live longer so i have more time to show my love to my beloved granmum,
have a chit chat with you, smiling while u reminding me my mistake, heed to you advices, help you to do housechores, praising you for the delicious disks you cook for us, hold your hand while you stumbling....
I wish can sense your happiness while i wish you Happy Father Day every year, time remind me that you never slap me even i do something wrong, thx for always give me wat you can, thx for giving me the chance to study and support me everythime i tell you what i wanna do, and always believe i can do well in that,although i cant give me a wealthly life but at least u teach me hw to live in a tough life, and ur son gonna be far better than those who are borned with a silver spoon in their mouth...
i wish you can find another good guy who can take good care of you in future, thx 4 everything you have done for me even i show cold shoulder to you, thx for the sudden call jz to ask me to take good care of myself....
I wish you can do well in your study , and find a good guy in future, be strong even ur parent had divorced...

_SHE_
I'm sry that I'm not good enough to be ur guy,
I'm sry that I had forgotten your birthday,
I'm sry that the fact i m not aware you are not happy,
I'm sry that telling you that i love you ,
I'm sry that the damn sweet words i have told you,
I'm sry that I m jz not so understand you at all,
I'm sry that I m too rush everytime,
I wish that you can be persistant for your choice and not giving up easily,
she is jz a young gal searching for some love in this big world,
so may God bless her in her love and find her prince,
I wish him can appreciate her now and ever,
always be the first for her...

_Friend_
I'm sry that I'm not a good fren at all,
I'm sry that I'm too emotional sometime,
I'm sry that I'm too selfish sometime,
I'm sry that I dunt like simply let ppl copy my answer for granted,
I'm sry that always make YOU worry about me,
I'm sry that always find YOU for chatting when i m sad but i not aware that you may bz too,
I'm sry that I cant keep the promise,
I'm sry that sometime my talking will hurt soemone...

__GirL, sToP ThaT__

Girl, stop telling me that u need me even you really mean it,
for that moment,
coz i find out i cant stop missing you after u told me that ,
and that is what i try not to do now...

Girl, stop telling me that u need me but i m jz not your first choice,
coz it is killing me , it is too sweet for me,
and i really cant afford it...

Girl, stop telling me that u need me, if u are not yet ready,
coz i will do everything but at the end i guess i will jz get an another dissapointed answer,
which i will think it worth while people around say i m a fool...

Girl, stop telling me that u need me, if the first person in ur mind is not me,
may be we( or me only) should back to last time ,
that time i put not much hope on your name will appear on my handphone again...
(That time I stop checking my hp for your name every half an hour)

Girl, stop telling me that u need me ,
u really dunt need to tell me that,
coz i will always be there for you,
when u are alone , you are down , you need somebody,
as a friend...

Girl, stop telling me that u need me ,
It will only make me feel worse for myself not good enough to to be your man...

Girl, I love you, I really mean it,
when you tell me you need me..
so jz dunt simply tell me that you need me ,
you will never know hw much a stupid guy like me will be touched by this 3 simply ' i need you'...
and I never regret about it...

__StaGe oF LiFe___

There must be some reasons we are borned to this world. But i still wondering for my reason. Some found their reason and work hard on it and get the self-satisfication by making themself special from the others. Some found their stage of life in their study, some in sport ,some in relationship ,games and so on....How about me ? I dunt think i m more intelligent than others or very good in some thing like sport or whatever...so what is my reason for coming to this world? And what is the stage of life for me to make myself different from other? Is it i can jz pass through my life by study , working , get marry and die? A so so normal and lame life.....I dunt want jz pass through my life lidat , feeling nothing i good at , walking among the crowd and cant find out what i m different from them making me sick .Wake up , study , sleep .. keep repeating the routine but dunno what am i study for....I really wanna know what I really want....At the day i find out my reason for coming into this world , i will be different from others...

__My MidTerm Break__

It is the worst holiday for me i think, no more sleep for 12 hours like last break...no more enjoyable like last time even i was alone in the empty house...too many thing for me to settle, applied static and engineering mathstests are coming the break, but i have no idea about that, 2 lab reports have to submit str after the break , mmu table tennis closed is coming on 19/8/07 , luckily, or unluckily i am the assistant director of this event , but seem like everything is not yet start....perhaps too much thing for me to do , so , internaly, i choose to ignore them all , doing nothing and waiting the time to pass away...Damn hate it!!! I dunno since when i start to feel that the lecture is tough, may be i not play enough attention on it. Dunno since when i realise my table tennis skil is so sux...and trying hard to improve it ....haihz...all i want now is to sleep for 12 hours .....arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...but now is the early morning of the last day of break ...>.< ...tomorrow after wake up have to settle the registration booth , have to find teammate to discuss about the lab report...have to find fren to ask for help for the coming test ...some people say that having dream in the sleep is not really good coz ur brain is functioning without break , well but i realli wish that i can have a sweet dream tonight , which can make me more energytic to prepare for tomorrow 's life...

P.s sry for this untidy blog..>.<

LaTeLy....

Lately, I learn wat is true love...
Lately, I cant sleep well in the night again..
Lately, I start looking for her message in my hp again...
Lately, I feel like cant catch up with my study...
Lately, I start cooking dinner...
Lately, I start looking for a song to listen for whole night...
Lately, I mix with a lot of frens in Table Tennis Club..
Lately, I start losing control for not playing Game...
Lately, I hate myself for not good in self-control...
Lately, I feel I am deteriorating in playing table tennis...
Lately, I feel like i m not as determined as last time...
Lately, I jz want close my eye and listen to the song (The Secret by Jay Chou) till i fall asleep...
Lately, I am exhausted, physically and mentally...
Lately, I will do my best no matter what happen...
Lately, no more lately...