__Let's talk about: IF__

Every single human understand that "IF" is not going to open, what has been done is done, there is no way to rewind, although it might possible to reduce the damage caused if our life. Yet, I guess everyone is still will think of "IF" once in a while in their life, especially during a distressing moment.

I used to very like "IF" and every time when I made a mistake I'll think about "IF", however that is during my child hood time, and I told myself that is no "IF" in our life. And. However again, "IF" still come across my mind uncontrollably even though I deeply understand nothing could be done. Just like the past 2 years, when came to exam week, I will start thinking " how IF I totally didn't play DOTA for the whole semester? I might earn another 72 hours or more for my revision now... or the past 3rd Sunday from now, I think again," How if Laurent Koscienly had headed the ball into the net of Stamford Bridge at the early 6th minutes of the match? So Arsenal might not have to be embarrassed with 2-0 down by the blue army and I might not have to suffer a broken heart misery night on my bed thinking "IF" ". And the latest "IF" in my mind is "how IF I have done just a little bit better for the past 2 years academic year? I will free from the Rm400 per month PTPTN loan repayment for 20 years!!!!". Thinking of that really make me down, some sort of I had just lost a 70k lottery due to the 0.5 cgpa things.

Human is fragile, for most of us, even we know that but we will still think of it, cause it is a way to make ourself better, or we can interpreted it as a mean of self protect from hurting ourself more by ourself due to the earlier damage. I'm not here to cheer you guys up to face the truth bravely or ask you not from being cowardly. Who can actually just recover because a word of stranger? Absolutely not me, I know that. Anyway, it will get rid of my mind one day, and I definitely will laugh at it for been stupid to think that IF. Next month? next week? or may be next day : ) ... For now I just need some self protection to make myself feel better.

p.s congraz to those who are on the path to win the ptptn lottery : (

__Let's talk about: Confidence__

I used to be a not so confidence guy, sometime I'll even ask myself, you are definitely not nice looking, your dad have not dozens of money, you are not extremely excellent in sport or music, and you don't even have a charming or attractive characteristic, so what you think how good the future you are able to make? or why a pretty and nice gal will marry you? Every times the questions come into my mind I'll get very disheartened by myself.

I still remember the depressing low tide of my life, the first time is last last year when I get dumped, I felt like a walking corpse for a few months until "Jogging" has pulled me out from the center of the quicksand. The second time is just few months ago, where I'm undergoing my internship training and exposed to the real world, and the reality stuck me. And I asked myself again, WHAT YOU CAN DO IN FUTURE TO GET A GOOD LIFE, life seem meaningless to me, I've no motivation for everything, sleep, speak , jogging, turn on the washing machine, study, absolutely every things you can list out or probably it is in your list now as well. Well, at the end, A book, a song, a movie, a person, a family help me out. IF you ask me now, "how are you?" I can bla bla bla to you for few hours, telling you my plan in the future, telling you what is the latest nice songs, what about the movie, and probably introduce my blog to you at the end : )

When a person are confident of himself, he will be very charming, much much much charming than other even he is just a not so good looking guy, and he can come out with so many stupid ideas and funny thought, and most of all he can make people around him laugh, dream, infected my his fervent passion. I love to be confidence, and I know all of you love too!!!

A : Hey, how confident are you?

Me : hmmm, very very confident.

A : ........( alright let ask him some question) How many gal you think you can get her on your car?

Me : Well, I have to say I got the confidence to get every single woman on the planet to get on my car!!( Say only ma, takkan he ask me to prove to him by asking every single woman to go for a ride with me de ma )

A : *+* " ............

So that is me right now, a little bit over confidence but definitely most craziest since I had been born.

And Confidence to me Isssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

Egg McMuffin!!!!

So, what is yours?

__Lets's talk about: Money & Love__

I love mix fm slogan " MIX FM believe that money should never come into love."

Yeah I agree and a lot of people agree with it, but indeed how many people can really do that? Especially our beloved females-in-relationship, who always like to compare their bf's wealth with other's ( or what my her bf just brought to her la bla bla bla la) just like the auntie compare their child's academy success with their siblings', neighbors' . Even though we all know that this comparison will bring tremendous pressure to our children and such a lot of pressure to us - MALEs-In-Relationship- but who really care??? I believe they (female) used to come across to the title of study and pressure bla bla bla during secondary school essay and come out with a point that parent should not compare their child with others' or news that child jump down from their house because of study pressure.. Yet. How many of them will stop compare us with other???

Let's share some of my PE ( Personal Experience ),

First Case, common case-

A gal she always like to tell her bf how rich the guy is, how nice his car was, and at the end come out with the conclusion that," how nice if you are also rich just like him!". and at the moment, what is just right in my mind is , "Fuck, even he is rich, but it doesn't mean he will give you that, or not even he will consider to take you as his gf right?and I believe at least your current depressed-by-your-complain bf is giving you much more thing than that guy do, even the value is not so high. And the most important is, I guess if I'm her bf, and if one day I get as rich as the guy I will start consider of dumping you already @@"

Second case, boy & gal equal right?-

Some gals told me, when I first on with my bf, I dare not to use his money. But now, I want to use his money as much as possible, sometime I can even to tell him that, "haihz, you no longer love me?" .[all right, mean his love just worth the hundreds RM ma?I did not speak it out la] and I ask "Why?" "Of course la, if one day they go find some other gal le? how if one day they dump me leh?" and again right in my mind "Goshhh, so that is avenge in future that you can foresee? so how if your bf doesn't do that to you after all or you are the one to dump him? ? What you are going to compensate him? Let him use your money back ma? Think about it!!! And I asked "Why not AA ?" , They said," since last time boy pay gal de ma if they go dating~" and now what again, last time female know how to cook a delicious meal, know how to needle point, know how to keep the whole house clean. What you know? You not even know how to keep your own room CLEAN&TIDY!!! And furthermore, it is a bit rude but I still going to say that, last time when the guy say I need it, the gal just get laid obediently on the bed no matter is it her period time or she felt not comfortable for it and open their leg big enough for the cock to sink deep into vagina, and now why you don't do that??? Since last time already like that ma. THINK ABOUT IT!!!!!

Third case, what the heck is in your mind??-

A gal said, we should use our bf money as much as possible because we are rugi~ing when they are holding our hand, hugging us, kissing us, and further do....Come on gals, don't think you are so innocent, both male and female get to stay in their mom's stomach for 9 months before come to the earth, so I (male) holding your (Female) hand mean you are rugi??? What the wrong concept you have!! Even we talk about having an intimacy-on-bed-exercise, so we (male) are the only one enjoy it? You (Female) are not? Just try to ask yourself, among the 10s on-bed-exercise, how many time is because of your bf's request and how many times is your request???For those gals who have the wrong concept, I sincerely beg you gal to stand up, you don;t need a guy to live in his society and you are no longer in the lower position to guy, and if you not going to change your mindset yourself, nobody is going to make the world different for you. I believe gal and boy are equal right.

All right, the post might be a bit rude but it is real, and I have no hard feeling against any gal whose example is in this post. I still respect you as a single being. Think about it. I love gals : )

P.s and of course there are many gals in the world who are not like what said in the blog, have no offend to every gal on the planet and the word "you" or "you gals" or "gals" are not referring to the every female out there.

Last but not least, I'm a MODERATE person *wink*

__Amenities of Life__

I used to read a book lately, 幸福就像狗尾巴 by 黄桐.... one of the story is talk about the amenities of life and I would like to share with you guys here.
A female nerd is depressed by her own boring life and she come to a monk, she complain and complain about her boring life, feeling so miserable of her boresome life, the monk listen to her patiently before come out with a idea to help her to change her life. He asked her to buy some flower to put in her house.
Months later, the gals come to the monk again but she is no longer depressed, indeed she is kind of different people to monk when he first time saw her. So the monk asked wistfully, what make your life become alive? She answered, " you ask me to put a flower in my house, so I start looking for a suitable flower, then i go market to look for a beautiful vase, when I get home I start looking for a place to put it on. Few days after, I go market again to get a tablecloth to put under the vase, week after the flower has growth and I have to learn the skill in shaping the flower to make it look nice to my guest and etc............" The monk said while smiling," and now you can't stop telling me your interesting life without complain anymore." and the gal, smile too...

Sometime it does happen in our life as well, we feel bored, feel dead, feeling like a walking corpse, It is just because we has forgotten, unaware of the tiny things in our life that can make the life much more lividly : )

Dismantling motor to wash

Dismantled

Washed and polished shining motor

Did clean and rearrange my memo board last few day, just put in a little bit extra effort to be creative and innovative in my work, still it's not an award winning-board but it make life more interesting, and perhaps a little bit different from others : )

__I'm Back__

I'm back

1.to the blogging!

2.to the road!!

3.to mySEFT!!!

Once I used to be thinking that , I blog because I'm want to share my life with the people around me, or that time I have no one to share my every detail of my life. Right after I get one, I feel there is no need for blogging anymore because I'd got one to share my every single detail of my life and that is no point to repeat everything again in blogging, but right after 18 months, I want to blog again, for myself.... even we already get one we want, but she/ he wouldn't be attending to us all the time, and not everything we want to share with him/her because they just DON'T UNDERSTAND sometime, don't you think so ? Hence, I'm back!!!

Announcement for the following date.......

1. Relationship related post in my blog would not be based on the my personal story.

2. The world "She/Female" in my blog should never be referred as my beloved.

3. You can not going to agree what I write here, but don't you tell me what I should post

and what I shouldn't, because it is MY BLOG after all.

All right see you guys next post : )